One year of change.
“Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.”
Eckhart Tolle
April 12 marks one year of life altering adjustments…the day that I stopped lying to myself, looked in the mirror, took a deep breath and said, it’s now or never, Susan. If this doesn’t get your attention nothing ever will. Take it seriously, learn what you have to do and DO IT! Nobody can do this for you. Nobody knows your body like you do, and what you can’t see or don’t know, now is the time to shift your focus, dive into educating yourself and GET THIS DONE. Yes, I shouted at myself, stomped my feet, felt sorry for myself, cried, freaked out, mourned the things I knew I could no longer do.
What I didn’t know yet, was the way that life was going to open up to make room for better, healthier, stronger things to fill in the spaces …the chunks that were shoveled out and tossed away, left room for knowledge, vibrancy, joy, HEALING, hope and health beyond my wildest expectations.
My little scale shows the weight and other changes. Every single marker in it was red in the beginning. STOP it screamed. It took a long time to get everything green. I focused on the visceral fat first because that was my organs, and one of them in particular was very unhappy. My poor liver. She’s no longer complaining. My age…went from 64 down to 53. Disclaimer here, I don’t know honestly how accurate these scales are, but it was a guideline and an eye opener and the brutal honesty was something I needed to see.
So while I focused on dropping all of the things from my life that did not serve the health of my body, it responded by rewarding my efforts. It is not lost on me how very lucky I was that it wasn’t too late. I started all this thinking that it was very much too late, that I had little time left, and would need a new liver. This is thankfully not longer true. But I will not take this healing for granted.
I lived through this year of change and will continue on this quest for my future health and all who want to do the same for themselves.
We are in this together. I thank each an every one of you who have played a roll and I am forever grateful.
Love, Sue
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